I don't really want to be human.

It's kind of stupid. There's an animal living on this planet, just doing his thing, just living life. Suddenly someone comes along. "Oh! I hope they're here to help find food or something. oh, no? They're here to take our food and take us and do weird experiments on us and destroy our homes. Oh, that completely screwed up my life. Now I don't have any food and I'm in this weird place. Well that sucks. Oh, they're going to kill my family. Okay. So I'm supposed to live like this right? Oh, well, I don't want to live like this now. I don't want to live okay? I'm dead. Oh, and I go to hell. Okay. I go to hell. What did I do wrong? I just lived my life and I live in hell. And I remember my old life."

Don't do this.

Don't try to be like your parents when you grow up. Do you know why? Because your parents made mistakes in their life too.

One particular thing I will do when I grow up.

Today is about me dying.  Not dying today.  When I get old and I feel I will die, I'm going to always keep a few matches and a belt with a gasoline tub strapped to my belt.  And, when I die, I will kill myself.  I'll pour the gasoline on myself.  And, without screaming, I'll take the match and I will drop it on myself.  I will very calmly fall to the ground and burn up.  And I will remain a skeleton.